A life update.

I've only ever written a blog post like this once before. I don't often sit and write about my feelings, but everyone knows how good it is for your mental health to write things down rather than to keep them circling around in your head, so I thought that I would do it! I hope that you don't find this post to wordy and boring and hopefully at least one person will be able to relate!

My one other blog post like this one spoke about how I struggled to choose a career path and only really realised what I wanted to do in my last year of university. Since then, I graduated and managed to snag myself a social media marketing internship (digital marketing is what I realised I wanted to do, btw). This is all great but, as with all internships, it is inevitably going to end. Obviously, I want to be as prepared as possible and (ideally) have another job before my internship comes to a close. Which leads me to the topic of this post: it's fucking hard for young people to get jobs these days! Am I right?! I've been constantly applying - I've probably applied for more than 100 jobs and almost all jobs ask for a minimum of 1-2 years experience in the particular field. The thing is though, how are you supposed to get experience if nowhere will let you gain experience if you don't have experience? It's a vicious cycle! I purposely got an internship in order to gain experience but it seems even that isn't enough.
Tbh, it's really been getting me down. I had a little bit of a breakdown the other day after finding out that I didn't get a job that I interviewed for in London. I don't even think it was to do with the job itself, that was just the breaking point. I know that knock-backs are a part of life but it really starts to feel like all hope is lost. You pay £9,000 a year for a degree, you take part in internship programs and extracurricular activities to make yourself stand out from other applicants and it just doesn't seem to be enough. Another thing is, I don't think older generations realise how hard it is for us young people. They remember a time when you left school and there was a job there waiting for you, but now you're competing with hundreds of other people for the same job. They think we're lazy and entitled but the fact of the matter is, a lot of young people just can't get work.

I went on a long rant (cry) to my dad about how I would never get a job in what I want to do and how I'm going to have to just get a job that I don't want and be miserable for the rest of my life (a bit dramatic, I know, but at the time it felt legit). He told me that I need to be strong and not let anyone tell me that I can't do what I want to do in life - and he's right. I'm going to keep on keeping on, it's just hard not to get downhearted.